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Tweak says, "Wash this!"

Melodi "Lee" Ainslee (sweet_melodi) wrote,
@ 2009-05-12 20:52:00

Current mood:

depressed

When the night falls in around me
I'm leaving for England on Saturday.

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I need to get my head on straight. I need to toughen up and not care. Not give a shit.... Be crazy like George, Becky, Ryan, Cali, Liv. But for some reason, it's just not in me. Maybe it comes with age and experience. Maybe one day I'll learn to stand up for myself and not be a fucking emotional wreck. I couldn't handle the lies any more. I've never lied. I don't want to start. So I told him. I didn't tell him who, that isn't his business. We're not a couple, right? Yet it hurt him. Why would it hurt him if he didn't care? if he can go fuck someone else, why can't i? because I'm pregnant? that's a real poor reason if you ask me...

So, i'm headed for Essex to get my shit straight and maybe do some growing up. Lord knows I fucking need too.

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	text _lancelot 2009-05-12 11:31 pm UTC (link)
	hey love. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	text sweet_melodi 2009-05-12 11:53 pm UTC (link)
	Hey there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _lancelot 2009-05-13 12:08 am UTC (link)
	you alright darling? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 12:11 am UTC (link)
	no (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _lancelot 2009-05-13 12:13 am UTC (link)
	do you need me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 12:18 am UTC (link)
	I need something alright. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _lancelot 2009-05-13 12:31 am UTC (link)
	I can be over in ten? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 12:34 am UTC (link)
	go to my house (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _lancelot 2009-05-13 12:37 am UTC (link)
	alright i will be over (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 01:05 am UTC (link)
	give me a few. i am moving some things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _lancelot 2009-05-13 01:06 am UTC (link)
	no baby you aren't supposed to be moving things. I'll just come get you. Pack a bag. I'll have it handled tomorrow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 01:08 am UTC (link)
	i've already packed a bag. i'll be at my place in about 20 minutes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _lancelot 2009-05-13 01:09 am UTC (link)
	I'm waiting outside. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	___talk_hard 2009-05-13 12:44 am UTC (link)
	Have a great time. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 12:46 am UTC (link)
	yeah, right. loads. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	___talk_hard 2009-05-13 12:47 am UTC (link)
	Don't bother looking for that prom dress. I've decided it's not really worth going. Who cares anyway. It's just a stupid dance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 12:51 am UTC (link)
	I already bought it ... You just don't get it do you? You know what, Rhett? I'll just move out okay? Save you the hardship of looking at me everyday and reminding you of what I did. Keep Ryan's room the way it is, so when you have him, he'll have somewhere to sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	___talk_hard 2009-05-13 12:52 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Bye. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sweet_melodi 2009-05-13 12:54 am UTC (link)
	Wow... okay. It ... bye. (Reply to this) (Parent)