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When the night falls in around me
I'm leaving for England on Saturday.

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I need to get my head on straight. I need to toughen up and not care. Not give a shit.... Be crazy like George, Becky, Ryan, Cali, Liv. But for some reason, it's just not in me. Maybe it comes with age and experience. Maybe one day I'll learn to stand up for myself and not be a fucking emotional wreck. I couldn't handle the lies any more. I've never lied. I don't want to start. So I told him. I didn't tell him who, that isn't his business. We're not a couple, right? Yet it hurt him. Why would it hurt him if he didn't care? if he can go fuck someone else, why can't i? because I'm pregnant? that's a real poor reason if you ask me...

So, i'm headed for Essex to get my shit straight and maybe do some growing up. Lord knows I fucking need too.